I'm super sad today...we just found out that a good family friend of ours struggling with cancer and all sorts of health issues only has a few days left... I've been crying for the last few days it seems like. My dad went in to have surgery on his bladder, he's been having issues since they removed one of his kidney's...they told him that he has prostate cancer. Life is so hard. I have been thinking about a talk, maybe from Conference?? about a woman receiving a letter from someone thanking them for the great example and all that this woman did for them, she held on to the letter and it helped her to know that she hadn't waisted her life, she was a good example to others. I wish I had written a letter to Willie. I'm sad that I won't be there to go to the funeral. I'm worried about my dad. I'm very sad for my family members that have lost their testimonies...I wish I knew what to do to help them. On the other hand, I have so many things to be grateful for...I am grateful for my dad having a kidney stone so they could find the tumor and remove it before the cancer spread. I am grateful for having Willie in my life growing up and for her sweet spirit and for her example of selflessness and love. I am grateful for hearing that talk and remembering it so now I can write some letters so I don't feel this regret that I feel now. And mostly I am grateful for the Gospel and for the Plan of Salvation and the knowledge I have that families are Forever. I'm sad for people that don't have that knowledge and understanding, how devastating it must be for them to lose a loved one. I am grateful for my little family...I am even grateful for my trials even though at times they seem unbearable, like the unbearably long time we've been trying to get pregnant!! K....DONE venting :) Going to write some letters!!